I myself am a bearer of unforgiveness. Holding on to alot of hate and pain for many years. It took me a VERY long time to come to a place of release.
I wrote a book about the love of a father and forgiveness at a time when everything seemed really painful. As I wrote the book, I teared up during certain parts because I wrote of a father's love that I wanted to feel and never did. I wrote my hope into words. Mere words. It was someone else's story and this person did receive that kind of love.
Me, I only knew pain and hatred. Rejection at it's worst. To write about love came from experiencing the life changing journey of Faith and Grace.
From that came forgiveness. From that came my own journey of realization. That it wasn't supposed to be my prayer for my father to change but it was supposed to be my prayer for ME to be transformed. To release forgiveness to him for things that we cannot go back to. Things we will never be able to change. The past.
It's the future we can choose to live out better. You see life doesn't get easier but it gets better when we choose to release baggage and accept change.
All it took was a " I love you and Forgive you, papa." A release for both him and me.
How long do we want to hold on to unforgiveness? It is for us! To release. We release it from our hearts. So we are not chained to the person or the past. Trust me though, it take years!! YEARS! It takes realization and release. The HARDEST thing to do.
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Incredibly touching, forgiveness and love is such heartfelt and raw emotions and yet many fail to nurture it.
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