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I myself am a bearer of unforgiveness. Holding on to alot of hate and pain for many years. It took me a VERY long time to come to a place of release. 

I wrote a book about the love of a father and forgiveness at a time when everything seemed really painful. As I wrote the book, I teared up during certain parts because I  wrote of a father's love that I wanted to feel and never did. I wrote my hope into words. Mere words.  It was someone else's story and this person did receive that kind of love.

Me, I only knew pain and hatred. Rejection at it's worst. To write about love came from experiencing the life changing journey of Faith and Grace.

From that came forgiveness. From that came my own journey of realization. That it wasn't supposed to be my prayer for my father to change but it was supposed to be my prayer for ME to be transformed. To release forgiveness to him for things that we cannot go back to. Things we will never be able to change. The past. 

It's the future we can choose to live out better. You see life doesn't get easier but it gets better when we choose to release baggage and accept change. 

All it took was a " I love you and Forgive you, papa." A release for both him and me. 

How long do we want to hold on to unforgiveness? It is for us! To release. We release it from our hearts. So we are not chained to the person or the past. Trust me though, it take years!! YEARS! It takes realization and release. The HARDEST thing to do.

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Amongst all of the heartbreaking news,comes a heartbreaking loss. Just lost my uncle last week and this week the world lost a friend. Matthew Perry will always be remembered by people who didn't know him personally as Chandler Bing, the guy who could create an atmosphere of joy in any situation. Hands down my favorite character. Through everything I've read and followed up on Matthew, he was a man whose been through personal battles and fought through it. We would never understand what he was going through and how he overcame but he had a prayer to help people and it was beautiful. He had 54 years, he spent alot of it making people laugh. Laughter is the best medicine we say. But behind every person who lives to make someone smile or laugh, is someone who works just to get up everyday and find joy within themselves as well. It can be pretty hard, when you have heavy battles to face yet people expect you to create an environment of joy.

This man brought joy to the world and I'm sure people around him even through his struggles like many before him. The one thing we learnt through any situation like this is to be there for people, we are all struggling yes! Yet there is a spark of hope we can pass to each other to help us to keep moving. It only takes a spark to get a fire going ,Pass it on an old hymn read.

A song that is remembered through generations now.

Whether it's in good times or bad times if we really care for at least one person we stand with. We carry the burden though heavy or light and through it all we can fight.

We were created to uphold each other through all the darkness going on whether within ourselves or all around us.

We were called to help others. Just like Matthew Perry chose to do. We are not just living for ourselves, no matter how long we have, we are living for at the very least one other person.

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From a Policeman to a Professor. That is his story. A man who never stopped learning until his last. Lecturing was his passion and he did so in an unforgettable way. His greatest advice to everyone was always to study and upgrade. He never stopped living out his passion until the end. He had consistency and he held on to Faith through everything.

I may not have gotten a chance to know him better personally but I learned one thing, when you impact others people will get to know you through all those whose lives you've touched. That really matters! Even if it's just one life! Make a difference and make a lasting impression. Your life may end but your journey will live on through others who have had the opportunity to know you and be impacted by you.

I have so much to learn about life itself. I know we all do because it's a neverending journey. 

That shows maturity in the situation. We usually teach kids to take correction ,to not be envious of another and it's sad how most of us do not outgrow certain childish behaviours. We tend to hold on to grudges and childish competitiveness that cause hurt to someone else who is NOT in a competition with us at ALL. Rather some of them are trying to be a friend. Being self centered is not the same as having self love. Self love is the conscious effort to appreciate how far you've come and celebrate you but you still can be selfless in the process whereas self centeredness involves a completely selfish approach to alot of situations. When we always expect others to do everything according to what WE want and you never give them an option. When they don't choose what we want, we tend to react in a hostile manner.

When you have Self love you encourage others to love themselves as well in a way that is positive and NOT selfish at all. So be careful with yourself and around others. May no one ever feel hurt around you but loved and comforted. Choose to outgrow childish habits and revaluate oneself at all times. How to speak to, care for and understand another. We are all still learning everyday, but the goal is to mature.

Life has so many ups and downs - which lead to many celebrations and disappointments. It feels like we are constantly battling to keep our mental health intact. How do we do that?

There is never a straight answer as it all depends on an individual. Our coping mechanisms vary. Not everyone has an easy way of coping with the draining the world causes us. It's a lot to deal with when you feel like the world is heavy on your shoulders.

Well, don't diminish what you feel. Yes, someone always has it worse but what you go through is as important to YOU. Embrace your emotions and your brokenness. To heal you have to FEEL. Crying is healing. I do not like the term "do not cry". I believe a lot of the tears I have cried about situations helped me overcome them. I don't cry about the same things anymore.

There is comfort in the tears - Crying is healing. When there are no words to pray, just pray with your tears and embrace your process of healing. There should not be a rule on healing oneself. It is your own personal journey and you are allowed to FEEL to HEAL.

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It gave me the ability to feel and understand a character’s journey. How human it is to feel, break, and rise up again. The fights one has to endure, the love that is received and lost. Shame and pain that one has to carry. There is much in human life that a lot of great people have endured reaching greatness. Stories help to translate that journey in many different ways.



Turn Real Events from Your Life into a Work of Fiction - A person’s life experience can carry much depth, despair, recuperation, and magnificence if they look back at how much they carried and still kept going. We connect through experiences generally and how we incorporate those experiences into helping as well as encouraging people also matters. Not every experience is meant to be just for ourselves. Sometimes we cross paths with people who need to hear our story. Who needs someone to understand the pain they’ve been carrying all alone, for a very long time?


Creative writing during COVID-19 -When I wrote my first and currently only book. I was unsure if I could even complete it as it took me 3 years to finish it through all the procrastinating and many issues that happened. God was good to me. COVID struck and when that happened I was at home for a long time having the best focus to finally complete it. I hope this book will be a blessing though it’s imperfectly created.

                                        

Basically, I write to inspire, I write to connect and in hopes that a story can even save a life. It is a calling to write and to write what makes sense.




Ash V

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